I can’t let you in

Do you ever feel desperate for someone to love you but at the sane time guilty for letting them care about you because they don’t know what they are getting themselves into? Sometimes I just really want someone to talk to, someone to vent to, someone who will hold me when I’m falling apart and tell me that it will be okay. But it wouldn’t be fair for me to place my burdens on anyone else. I can’t let anyone in because it will only hurt them if they get to know the real me. I don’t want anyone to have to worry about me. I don’t want anyone to care so much about me that I will hurt them. But at the same time I just really want to love and be loved. I feel like it would really help to have someone there to support me but at the same time I really don’t think it would be fair to that person if I became close to them but then the truth came crashing down and they realized that I’m not actually this happy girl like everyone thinks.
How can I let someone in if I know that I will only end up hurting them in the end?

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