Enjoying some much needed time off

Since I finished school I jumped right into working full time. As such, I have had virtually no time for myself. I work 6 days a week and the one day that I do have off is usually spent catching up on sleep. But this weekend is a long weekend for me so I have 3 days off in a row and it is amazing. It is the only weekend all summer that I will have this much time off so I am making the most of it by taking some much needed me time. I’ve been reading, decorating, watching countless movies, pampering myself by doing my nails and just relaxing. It has been so nice (aside from this morning when I had to get blood work, but I’m trying not to think about that). 

The last few days have been so relaxing. The heat is annoying but otherwise everything has been good. No family fighting. No panic attacks. No disagreements with my parents.

The only downside has been my constant eating. I’ve binged a lot this weekend so I feel like I’ve gained a lot of weight. I really need to get back on track. I figure I will allow myself this weekend and then I will start my diet up again. I need to lose at least another 25-30 pounds and then I will be happy. And that will still technically be a healthy weight according to the BMI scale. So it will be fine! 

Now I just need to make it happen!

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My response to the ever present “I don’t like your attitude”

One of the things that my parents have told me a million times over the years is “I don’t like your attitude”. The funny thing about this is that they are expecting me to be a completely happy and cheerful person even when they are yelling at me for something that may not even be my fault. So to any parents who read this, please take a moment to understand that a person’s attitude is dependent upon the situation. Therefore, if you are going to yell at your child, then you should expect the child to react in a not-so-happy way.

minimizing your feelings gets you nowhere fast

I needed to hear this

Youth Of A Nation:Bent not Broke

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Stop minimizing and discounting your feelings. You have every right to feel the way you do. Your feelings may not always be logical, but they are always valid. Because if you feel something, then you feel it and it’s real to you. It’s there tugging at your core, and in order to find peace, you have to give yourself permission to feel whatever it is you are feeling. You have to drown out the voices of people who try to shame you into silence. Despite what you may believe, you don’t need anyone’s validation or approval to feel what you are feeling. How you feel matters…YOU MATTER! Don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.

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Not everyone Lives

Have you ever seen someone who just looked so blissfully happy that you became happy for them? I was driving home from work today and I was stuck in traffic. Cars were bumper to bumper because it is Canada Day long weekend and everyone is heading away. Everywhere I looked I saw impatient drivers weaving in and out of traffic trying to get just a few meters further into their journey towards some promising destination. 

Among the travelers there was one individual who caught my attention. It wasn’t her appearance or her admittedly expensive looking car that  caught my eye, but rather it was her obvious happiness. She was smiling and bobbing her head along to her music. She was dancing and singing and acting in a way that most people only do in the privacy of their homes. But she was just so happy. I smiled to myself when I saw her because she made me think of the old expression that “not everyone lives but everyone dies”. I can’t help but think that I’m not living my life to the fullest. But for a moment this woman who I have never seen before brightened my day. 

I hope that one day I can be happy and carefree as well. 

xo

Ayla

Have you heard of ASMR

Have you heard of ASMR? Also known as Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response, ASMR is great relaxation technique. While it doesn’t work for everyone, there are sensory triggers such as whispers, soft sounds, accented voices, and other soothing noises which can produce a tingling or shivering in the back of the head towards the neck. For those who are able to experience the sensation, it is extremely relaxing. For those who are not as sensitive to the sensations, they may experience nothing. However, if you are looking for a way to relax, I would recommend you check out some ASMR videos on YouTube. One channel that is great is called Gentle Whispers. Some people will feel rediculous watching the videos, but others will have their ASMR triggered which will result in deep relaxation.

If you want to give ASMR videos a shot, check out this video!!

Books, Tea, and alone time: My secrets to stress relief

Books, Tea, and alone time: My secrets to stress relief

One of the things that I have struggled most with throughout my life is how to deal with stress. Its overwhelming at times and it can even seem unbearable. That said, there are a few things that I have found that help me deal with stress.

Reading is definitely one of the best methods of stress relief for me. It allows me to lose my self in someone else’s story for a while and forget about my own problems.

Tea also really helps me relax. In fact, I just prepared a french vanilla black tea for myself a few minutes ago. The added benefit of this of course is the fact that there are no calories (this is the bulimia talking, I know…).

Lastly, alone time is great. Having time to myself every once in a while really helps me to unwind. I love my family, but sometimes they drive me nuts. When I have time to myself it allows me to take a break from all the things that they do that drive me crazy.

Now, I want you to close your eyes and picture this. You’re outside. Its early evening so the sun is just starting to go down but it is still light enough for you to read your favorite book. You have curled up on a blanket in the back yard and you have your book in one hand, tea in the other. You smile to yourself as you get to your favorite part in the book, take a sip of your delicious tea, and sigh happily as the sound of crickets chirping relaxes you.

Doesn’t that sound amazing? This is the perfect remedy for a stressful work week. If you’re feeling a little tense I would highly recommend it!

Let me know how you unwind after a stressful day in the comments below!

Leibster Award Nomination

Leibster Award Nomination

Thank you so much http://writetolive7.wordpress.com/ for the Leibster Award nomination! I am so honoured to receive this nomination! I started this blog with the intention of raising awareness about mental illness, ending the stigma, and talking about my own experiences and struggles. I want to motivate people to make the change in the way that the public views mental illness. This nomination suggests that I am being successful in reaching people and raising awareness and for that I am so grateful!

As is customary for this award, the following is a Q&A blog about myself:

1) Why did you choose your current career?
I am currently working towards my undergraduate degree in the field of marketing. I chose this career path because I am interested in raising awareness about specific issues such as the stigmatization of mental illness. This will allow me to make a difference without actually interacting with individuals who have mental illness in the health care sector. Science was never my thing so this career path allows me to still be a part of the things that I am passionate about without having to actually be on the health care side of things.
2) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
I want to live where ever my close friends and family are. I really rely on these people for support so it is really important for me to be near them. That said, if I was able to choose anywhere in the world to move with all of my friends and family I would probably live somewhere like Ottawa. If I was going to move to a different country I would probably move to England.

3) What are your favorite things to do on your day off?

Play guitar, sing, read, write, draw, and take pictures. Pretty much anything creative.

4) Can you sing?
Yes and no. I would say I have a decent voice. I don’t have what it takes to be famous but I don’t think I’m awful either.

5) Who is your hero/heroine?

Demi Lovato is definitely my hero. She has gone through so much and come out the other side. I am currently facing many of the same mental health struggles that she has faced in the past so I find strength in her words of advice. She is truly inspirational.

6) Do you get along with your parents?
Yes and no. I get along with my parents for the most part. The only time I do not get along with them is when it comes to my own struggles with mental illness. They don’t understand what I am going through and they probably never will.

7) What is your favorite band/singer?
I have a lot of them. Ed Sheeran, Passenger, Imagine Dragons, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift, City & Colour, Elton John, and Christina Perri to name only a few.

8) Have you ever won an award for sport?
HA…no.

9) Do you have any special talents?

I have been told that I am a talented writer. I’ve also been told that I have a good singing voice but I wouldn’t say its a strength.

10) What is your favorite book, and why?
There are sooo many!! I don’t know that I could narrow it down to just one book, but one of my favorites is The Snow Child by Eowyn Ivey. My parents got this book for me when they went to Alaska for a vacation. I like it because it is so rich in culture. I feel like it really allows the reader to connect with Alaska. Its amazing. I definitely recommend you read it if you haven’t already.

11) If you could ask for one wish, what would it be?

World happiness. I just wish everyone could be happy. I want everyone to co-exist peacefully without pain or crime or hurt. I wish for happiness.

Now that I have answered the questions, I would like to nominate:

http://a2eternity.wordpress.com/

http://hopeinhealingblog.wordpress.com/

http://recoverybound27.wordpress.com/

http://doneinsecret.wordpress.com/

http://darcsunshine.wordpress.com/

Here are the rules!! http://wordingwell.com/the-liebster-award-the-official-rules-my-first-blog-award-and-a-few-personal-secrets-revealed/

I look forward to your posts! 🙂